For the past few months I’ve been in a weird sort of funk with anything creative outside of work. Granted, my day job is fairly creative intensive right now so it makes sense. Usually by the time I get home from work every night I’ve been working my usual eight hour shift on top of my commute which usually equates to about 2 hours total (give or take depending on Washingtonian drivers).
For instance right now on the computer I use to process photography I have about 6,503 pictures. Sure, some of them have been processed but I’d say probably only 1,000 of them can be categorized as such. Thursday I sat myself down and finally processed photos I took at a friends wedding in September while jumping around to other photography events I had (family trip this summer, friends wedding a few weekends ago, the European cruise, etc). I figured out if I attempt to push through one event at once I get burnt out and resentful I took so many photographs.
Also? Remember the European cruise I took August? I’m determined to finish writing about that experience but it’s going to be a whole lot of looking at a calendar and looking back at emails to Mack which I kept a pretty detailed log of what happened that day during the trip for him. Sure, I have 1700 some odd pictures from it but what if I forget some inane event that happened during the cruise?
Heaven forbid!
I guess, perhaps, ultimately what my issue is I’m overwhelming myself with all these projects I want to get done every night. I have a website project Mack and I want to do together, another project here, another project there, and suddenly I feel myself getting stressed out and having to do yoga breathing exercises which I was advised to do months ago.
I also feel bad since I have sorely neglected this blog. I mean, it’s not like I really have readers since I’ve been so bad about updating. I have a notebook with topics scribbled all over the pages but when it comes to sitting down in front of the computer? I get antsy and go do chores around the house. There’s ways I want to better organize the site and stuff I want to develop which perhaps led to me being afraid to actually update here.
What? I’m a web designer. I can’t help it.
That’s why I’m taking deep breaths and setting small goals for myself since I’m tired of putting stuff off. Perhaps it was laying around sick all weekend and being physically unable to do anything which made me realize that baby steps are needed and not to stress myself out about something not being done RIGHT NOW. During the month of November I’m making a lofty goal to blog everyday. I’m going to try and tie up a bunch of loose end posts (like the European cruise) but also keep it simple for the days I just can’t handle writing a lot.
Do any of you have any big (or small) goals for yourself in the month of November?
